Life

I had been meditating about the reasons that took me to get lost into gaming, (although not the main reason I went down the hill), it wasn’t life it self, ‘I like living’, it is how the world, our enviroment is. Everything revolves on the money, sadl,y it causes people to turn each other. You can’t trust people, I’m not paranoic, but how’s our current world shaped, you can expect most of the people to backstab you in order to survive. I worked on slaving jobs until the end of August this year, then I decided to do college. I felt like a slave, I was treat like one, of course it’s not the old way, it’s the modern slavery, how can someone find hapiness like this?

Long Days

More than 14+days without gaming, I lost the count. You’re already heard about it, it’s been hard, every single day. Now I remember why I got lost into games, the horrid reality, life itself. I don’t know which way to take in life, I don’t enjoy doing everyday stuff, only anguish, despair feels my heart now. Honestly I don’t know how to work this out.

Days go by

I had been planning to move to another house since April of this year, it’s been delayed by my work and my addiction, back then, I used to work as a Technical Support Representative for a major computer manufacturer. My job was highly stressful and when I got home all I did was play games, stuff around the house started to be neglected, you can imagine that.

After a few months later I managed to sell my propety and all I’m waiting for is to ‘end the deal’ on January (lovely burocracy). Hopefully moving to another house would help to wash off this terrible addiction.

Kill what?

Greetings, My name is ‘ilpistolero’ and I have a problem… I’m a game addict.

Some days ago (12 days at the time of writing this post), I quit playing video games, it was sunday. Playing video games was always part of my life, my first console was the NES (Nintendo’s first console) and my first game was Super Mario Bros. It was the 80’s, I used to play 1 or 2 hours, on a sporadic basis, nothing wrong back then, BUT, after a few years later, everthing went down hill, but ‘playing video games’ was the main reason? I still trying to answer that myself.

Now let’s go back to the present… after failing 4 different carrers, living alone and having absolutely no friends but acquaintances, having ‘hit bottom’ several times, and been thought my personal hell, here I’m, taking the very first step to fix this mess.

What I felt after quit gaming? I sleep better (much better), I’m in a better mood (I feel like socializing more), of course there’s the withdrawal effects, such as fatigue, depression and the ‘need’ to play, which after 12 days those symptoms became more bearable.

Will I make it for at least 30 days ‘clean’?

Stay tuned…